I cried in the Rain

I cried in the rain

To hide my tears

Begged for salvation

From the voices in my head

 

I ran barefoot

Listening to the pain

As my feet bled

And my sadness evolved

 

I glistened in rainwater

Finding a peace

In looking at my flesh

Wet with nature’s finest gift

 

I cried once again

Cold concrete beneath me

Hungering for the fever

To dry the flood within

 

I stared at the moon

Wondering what her voice would tell me

Hearing her laugh

At what I’ve become

 

I begged for her safety

A hand to guide me through

To give me a ledge

To dig my nails in lest I fall

 

All I heard was an echo

Of my weak pleas

Swallowed by the darkness

Drowned by the rain

 

As I cried myself to sleep

Lulled by the voices so familiar

I find sanity out of madness

And pray for escape from shame

 

I awaken to the Sun God

Safe yet still aware

Of how vulnerable I feel

In my own skin

 

At what point do I stand

And find my strength

Find a comfort in walking shoeless

Feeling the Earth squishing between my toes

 

And when do I decide

To define my own salvation

To create a self that adores

The self I have become

 

I sit patiently now in repose

Wondering yet afraid to demand

Hungry yet still pensive

Yet knowing there is a fire within

 

One day I shall erupt

A volcanic evolution

And then I shall proudly stride

A woman of my own origin

 

Hold my hand and not my head

For I must hold my head up alone

Do not abandon me in my weakness

Yet do not fear me when I fall

 

Cradle my love as a child

And know that even weak, it is strong

For as I grow powerful and prideful

I shall take my turn to carry you

 

In the end I finally realize

The end is merely a beginning

A single facet of this brilliant prism

That brings meaning to our world