Pushing Up Daisies

The snow falls, the snow breaks,

the heat melts what cold makes;

the winter comes, then spring arrives;

what frosty beauty it deprives.

What grass attempts to solely grow,

is burdened down by summers glow.

That summer which I know wont be;

that summer which I'll never see.

I look about, I look inside, 

I look around, I move aside.

I sit and sulk, I watch and stare;

I wait for more, this isn't fair.

Then sudden air - it pricks and prods;

it steals my breath, it wakes the gods.

It angers men, it draws on strife,

its my with-drawl, it ends my life.

 

I'm pushing up daisies. You don't understand.

I'm chewing up roses 'cause their cutting my hands.

I'm feeding on bitterness, I'm drinking your blood;

I'm drowning in sorrow - it comes like a flood.

What grace I was given flew right out the door,

like the sand washed away along a seashore. 

It came and I saw her. I heard it, she called.

Yet I didn't answer - my behavior appalled.

I burdened myself as I beat and abused thee.

I watched the world spin as it finally screwed me.

I let it take my Jesus and shove it in a drawer;

I watched it kill my angels - freeze them to the core.

I sat in bed for hours, waiting for a sign.

I sat in bed for hours, praying to a shrine .

No religion saved me, no emotion could withstand,

the relationship I needed - a place for me to stand.

 

I know no release is coming,

thats why I can't stop running.

I'm stuck, I'm dead, I've reached my end.

I wither, weaken, break and bend.

I rest my soul, I close my eyes;

a daisy gone with springs demise.

I've payed my dues, I've done my time;

immortal only through this rhyme.

 

Let the winter wonder wash me.

Let the people leave me be.

Let the field swallow my essence.

Let me fade into the sea.