Understatement Of The Upmost Degree, Vile Matriarch

Please don't give up on me..

I'm sorry.

Cue the latest understatement, shall we?

I'm spent.

Spent on everything that abolishes my euphoria and tugs and toils at my sanity. They want my soul, I do believe.

I regret.

Unleash the tidal wave. Oh, how much I would relinquish and erase if I only I was stronger. Better. Braver.

I know.

Believe you me, I am well aware you deserve so much better than I have conjured up to offer in my feeble, anemic hands.

I'm pathetic.

Haunting feelings taunt me when I am at my worst, gnashing and coercing their hideous heads. I cause such dismay.

I'm buried.

So far below in the smog pit, staring with glassy, lifeless eyes as cold, numb limbs hang by my side. My side, where you have always prevailed.

I'm afraid.

Fear edges its way inside as it seeps through my nerves with every agonizing minute that passes by. You're my luminescence through the coal black atmosphere. Hence my idiosyncratic aurora borealis.

I'm lost.

Without your reassuring smiles of captivation. Surely the rain would reign with mockery upon my solitude.

I'm drowning.

Why must I displace your outstretched hand of grace with so many nights I cast myself into the flood of my pitiful actions?

I'm a disgrace.

Darling, how can you bear to look upon my face with such constant fidelity when I am queen of failing you? Such a vile matriarch to suit.

I'm sorry.

All my unheard pleas and prayers, please, Darling, please don't lose hope in me. I may have deteriorated your once reverence of me, but you have not an inkling of my sincere remorse. Bona fide guilt, grief from the contrition I may have caused you. Just stay with me, for I'll not have my better portion gone astray, whilst I yet remain breathing.

Author's Note

Reviews are always welcomed! But please don't tell me to shorten it. I can't. Hahah :)

Reviews

[Little Birdie]

Beautiful monologue. I can feel the desperate emotions simply leaking through the pores and edges of the poem. The whole idea...I can imagine myself lying broken on my bed and whispering it to someone in a form of apology for everything that has been...
This is so sincere, so utterly raw but then again refined that it feels like you've given your whole soul and being into it while writing.
And that's just beautiful.

[THIS ACCOUNT IS CLOSED]

Without your reassuring smiles of captivation. Surely the rain would reign with mockery upon my solitude

OMG!!!! This is so deep and passionate, I dont know what to say.... Its Just..... Wonderful!

[Archia]

I love the last line, I absolutely love it. It just makes so much more sense of the whole thing, and ties it all together. Your writing is really beautiful.