Joy Injections

I'm going to inject joy into my veins

Sedate it in my brain

Renounce all the pain

And kneel down but never pray

I don't wish for it until death do us part

It always parts

The joy never sticks to my arm

Even when I bathe in the strongest glue

Only bees and ants crawl up on my skin

And die so suddenly

Death, pain, a depressing melody string

Rings in my ears

And whenever I hear it

I inject joy into my veins

And just close my eyes

Never praying

Just waiting and waiting

Until it hits

Sedates my brain

And I can feel a tiny bit of artificial rainbow fizzy candy joy again

So sweet, so sick, so plain

Once I suck all the sour crystal sugars

But it is there!

And it's modelled after the strongest folks

Who live on with a smile on their faces

Even against adversity

It just f*****g works

I think I'm happy again

I only have fifty more minutes 

To be myself again

Reviews

[berenongur]

quick gratification never ends well, so I'm so glad this poem wasn't too short. I hope you always have longer term solutions to be yourself and find happiness. I loved this poem, it was absolutely brilliant.