The lucky ones

The lucky ones

A Poem by Lana

It seemed to be love at first sight
You looked into my eyes
And I didn't think much of it

I am under the spell of remnants of bullying
From all the boys who told me I can't do s**t
That I am just too ugly

I wanted you so badly
I thought it was just too easy
To look at you from afar
And believe that one day I could afford it
I'd gain riches inside of me
Worth a million bucks that I could spend in
Making you believe that you should be with me

Only you weren't a puzzle I couldn't solve
You really wanted me
Me, the ugly unlucky empty jewellery box
With nothing shining in it
I couldn't believe my eyes 
My heart was crying
Until everything was dying
The fire was extinguised as fast as it began 
"No, you cannot be happy" 
That's what it said to me
You kept touching me 
My crushed soul couldn't deal with it
I am part of the billions of souls
Who do not deserve it
I thought, he has Pacino's eyes
But no God in him
He couldn't be the father of my child
Even if my thought process went too far about it
I just felt nothing
We all want love
Oh but not me
I do not deserve it
That's what it told me

I always daydreamed about us walking somewhere in Italy
Maybe Florence or somewhere in Sicily
Holding hands, feeling your warm embrace
Little things that are so foreign to me
I knew it could someday be real
But then the evening comes 
And the sun is no longer smiling
It is dying and transforming
Into a dusty star that is decaying
And I ask the universe 
Please, do I deserve this?
And it always tells me no
I do not deserve it
That's what it told me
I am only just obeying

No love for the crushed souls
Only love for the lucky ones

© 2022 Lana


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Your poems full with pain but longing to learn what love really is

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Added on January 11, 2022
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