Rain

Something different

I stand out in the rain trying to cleanse my soul,
thinking heaven may not be where I'm meant to go.
As a drop of rain falls and hits my brow,
I never noticed something up till now,
I'm finally figuring out who I am inside,
truly seeing the person that I tried to hide.
I've actually done some things that ended up right,
changes to make that person come to light.
I've hid in the shadows for far to long,
feeling myself get lost in the endless fog.
Never knowing where my beliefs have lead me,
but this time around I can finally see,
I don't want to go to paradise when I go
I'd rather stay here and watch my cherished ones grow.
A paradise without people who matter to me,
is somewhere I would never want to be.
Knowing that I finally want to stay,
I ultimately decided to cast heaven away.
My true paradise is here with them,
from now until the bitter end.
Even if I don't ever get into paradise then I'll truly know,
that I should stand out in the rain to try and cleanse my soul....