God Have Mercy On This Hollow Curse

I walked home tonight. I cried the entire way reciting my feelings in rhyme. I love her so much.

God have mercy, on this hollow curse.
Reach into the casket. Empty, like the hearse.
My love danced beneath the stars tonight Lord.
Something so beautiful, hoping to be ignored.
Sinful I am to thee. Look past love's beauty to see hers.
God have mercy, on this hollow curse.

Seeing her too much brings out the truest of pains.
Later in the time, is when my loneliness truly gains.
My feet tremble under the solid ground.
Sucking my feet with gravity, my heart continues to pound.

I caused her pain tonight Lord.
Something without intention, and only yours.
The true princess of our merciful Lord.
My pain drives directly through her. 'Twas my own sword.

I walk this unforgiving pace of guilt.
My feet holding just what they have built.
I lair. Forever and ever we both agreed.
But Lord, you and I both know, I am a man of greed.
My own issues interfering with the waves of love.
The love slowly gliding tonight, high and above. Our heads.

God have mercy, on this hollow curse.
For the sin granted to me, is now much worse.
The barrel to my chin. Now look into the hearse.
The rapture dwells my soul and my consistent heart.
But forever I will stand, with you and I apart.

Not now but for sure to come our way.
Love, don't be discouraged or filled with dismay.
God have mercy, on this hollow curse.
The walk home tonight, I finished my search.
Call me sane or call me crazy, but I weep of your love.
So much, your loves overflows onto the street.
Soaking my shoes and my foundation 2 feet deep.

Baby, I talked to Him about you. I felt your arm around my waist.
Walking steadily, thinking of our love, wile keeping pace.
Devouring my words is our Lord. Receiving my thoughts.
I weep intently, not sweeping the tears. Keeping no count of my coughs.
The cold dark night nips at my nose. Hands frigid in my pockets,
I scream of hoarse emotions filling the night air. C**k it.
Twenty years. One year. One week. The next minute.
Love conitinuing through my ice cold veins, reaps the bullet.
God have mercy, on this hollow curse. I've stopped to fill it.

Author's Note

Quite a long one. I think it's one of my better though.

Reviews

[Dani California]

I agree this is indeed one of the best, if not thee best I have read of yours. Wow.. great work Austin! Truly. The content is filled with anguish and desperation -- hopelessness. Oddly, I felt a tinge of hope throughout until the ending when he appears to let all hope slip away.. and gives up. The last line is outstanding. Very well done!!

[Bhavya Kaushik]

This is really I guess one of your best work which I have ever read.
I agree that it's really very personal but sometimes our best work comes out of our personal feelings only.
I loved the structure but the best thing according to me is the usage of line - "God have mercy, on this hollow curse." and then ending it with - "God have mercy, on this hollow curse. I've stopped to fill it." - This itself gave such a perfect conclusion to the poem.
Very well written!

[lexiilunatic]

wow. this is so emotional i want to cry.

is this poem about the girl you love?

[turtlegirlluver]

Another really good write. You are very talented at showing your emotions clearly in all the pieces you write, especially this one. Once you set out an emotion you built on it and by the end you show what the built up has caused. A very good piece!