Russian RouletteA Story by J.M. BarrettA short writing assignment for my creative writing class a few semesters ago. Another core incident project.
I've been around the sun twenty-one times, but no matter where I'm standing it always looks the same.
And although the earth keeps spinning as it makes it's full rotation, I can never seem to turn my back against yesterdays rays. The earth never stops. And the sun never seems to change. My life no longer consists of new memories building upon old experiences, or old experiences upon new memories. I remain in a flashback. When I close my eyes, I see the same thing every time. And when I open them, it becomes real again. "Fate amiss, lost and obscure. Cut throat menacing, black and pure. There is no option to run and hide. When I pull this trigger, will I die?" Every time I play this game I am left standing. Yet every time I fire a blank, I die one more time. How do I live when this is all I think about? I'm incapable of pretending it was never real. Fourteen years have passed since then and not one second have I ceased to remember that day. I can't move forward when all I want is to run back in time and grab Daddy's arms so tightly. A sensible seven year old is much too foolish to listen to when you're drunk and trying to impress your friends. I tried to stop him! One single moment happened so suddenly, yet one single moment will keep me captive forever. I can still see the room. It had a scent of liquor and a haze of cigarette smoke. The dim lights complimented the cracked walls. I remember. Daddy's friend passed him the gun. Tears had welt up in my eyes. "No Daddy, please don't do it!!" They had just become aware that I was in the room. "Don't fret little one, the first player never dies," encouraged Daddy's drunk friend. "Honey go upstairs." I heard loud screeching exit my mouth as Daddy picked me up and brought me to his room. As he shut the door behind him and went back downstairs, I buried my head in the blankets. I prayed I wouldn't hear a gun shot. Afraid that my deep gasps for air would prevent me from hearing, I tried to hold my breath. I was trembling as my tears drenched the pillow. Slowly I began to slip away, and then ... my heart dropped. Please let it be someone else! I didn't care if it was selfish. I will never forget that sound.
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Added on May 15, 2010Last Updated on June 9, 2011 AuthorJ.M. BarrettSpring Hill, FLAbout"...for every mile the feet go, the heart goes nine." - ee cummings more..Writing
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