TeachA Story by write_or_wrongThis is an ongoing work in progress. I'm really just posting this to show Vivian.Teach Each of us, inside ourselves, has this unending
connection of seemingly grandiose events. If we can separate them from
ourselves, we will see that their grandiosity is only an illusion. The fact of
the matter is, the universe doesn’t give a damn about you. Humbling and
depressing as it may be, none of us are even so much as a blip on the universal
radar. Nonetheless, I have decided I would like to share with you the
connection of events that have consumed and created my soul. I’m not sharing because
I feel like my life has been so much more meaningful and grand that I think you
all want to hear about it. No, in fact, it’s almost the opposite. My life was cut from the same boiler-plate mold as the
rest of you. I have had tumult and turmoil, trial and tribulation, forlornness,
wretchedness, and despair. Who hasn’t? I have experienced moments of pure
bliss, enchantment and exhilaration. I have had jubilation and joy, unadulterated
euphoria. I have also had my fair share of moments that just… were. Moments
when nothing was great, but nothing was terrible. And when you add them all up,
just like everyone else, my life has been astonishingly average. In fact, the only reason I feel the need to write it
down is that I think I could teach people something. I think that there are
lessons to be learned in the commonplace events in everyday life. Not to harp
on any religious text, but my opinion is that they make it too complicated.
Life is incredibly unexceptional, and poetic parable just muddles the message for
everyone. While my stories are mine and mine my own, they can be reduced to
same mediocrity as yours. In the end, we all learn the same lessons. And in the
end, all these roads lead us home. I guess this is the part where we jump right in.
Lesson
1: Life Goes On As with any flashbulb memory, I remember it like it
was yesterday. I think about it every day and it will haunt me to my last
thought. What should I have done
differently? Some nights I stay up, obsessively replaying it in my
mind. I’ll revisit it, over and over and over again, like a mad man trying to
solve a puzzle with only half the pieces. I mostly understand that there is no
solution. I mostly understand that I’ll never have all the pieces. In the words
of a man I once loved, “Sometimes closure is a luxury that will never be
extended.” I’m sure by now you’re wondering what it was. Put
simply, it was the hardest moment of my life. It was just as hard as whatever
moment has been the hardest for you and the details are rather irrelevant. It
was the moment that defined the capacity of my resiliency. But not without dragging me down first. Understatement, I reacted very poorly. I acted as if
life was personally attacking me. I wrongly accused others of stealing my
happiness. I lost friends and I lost myself. People always drop some bullshit about, “You can
control how you react.” And to that I say, “No, sometimes we can’t.” Sometimes, without thinking, we react poorly. Sometimes, through no fault of our own, we are simply unprepared. There are moments when life is just too fucked up to
see it coming. And when it gets fucked up like that, you’re allowed to have that
moment where you can’t do anything but f**k it up even worse. It’s honestly the
natural reaction, because no one is equipped to handle the problems forced on
them by modern life. But don’t live in
those reactions; live in the moments
after. Live in the moments when, even when you didn’t think it could, life goes
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