falling to pieces

more of my emotional bullshit :) the different shade and font size for the japanese and french were on purpose btw :)

i wish i could tell you that each days it gets easier that with everyday you start to fade from my memory  and my heart and that with time ill get over u .. i wish i could but i cant its been this way for nearly a year and it'll be this way forever.... with each new day comes new pain and i find it increasingly hard to get out of bed where i lay my head every night and stare into space for hours... each new day brings new memories as fresh as the day they were made there so f*****g beautiful but then i realize that there just memories and if your right there will be no more made.... i feel as if these walls are closing in on me everything i know is turning to s**t ive lost the interest for everything its all become bland and tasteless to me this pain is more than ive ever felt i and i sit around and wonder is this a form of masochism since i did it to myself?  I dont know what to do i dont know whats wrong with me but for the first time in my entire life i know what i want , what i need baby, its Y O U  ....
Suis-je perde ma santé mentale?
Watashi was ima made sore o motte ita?
They say time heals all wounds but this wound will never heal  the hole you left is to large... whats past is past he says... no whats past is my present its all i can think about every day maybe  im just insane to feel this way about someone maybe im entirely wrong maybe the "F**k it" mentality is what i should have ...... but i cant let this go it cant end here i dont know maybe ill be okay ... or maybe im falling to pieces without u