What If I Had....

Maybe in My Dreams

You know what if had not had you

What if I had not experienced you too?

Maybe my life would be different all together forever

Telling me that maybe my existence wouldn't be happy never

How you helped me to grow

How you helped me to know

The full extent of life

Knowing what you meant to my strife

I loved you more than myself

I was no longer on a shelf

I was important after all

No longer against a wall

I had a purpose to serve

My words were even heard

I was in love for good

I would do anything and did

You meant the world to me

I hoped you were able to see

My heart beating for only you

But there was nothing I could do

When God wanted you with him so soon

It wasn't for me to say or to do

It was to accept and to cry

And not to deny

You flew away to Heaven and taken home

And I had to stay here all alone

So you did change me for the best

So I will just say you and I are left with the rest

Reviews

[M. L. F.]

ahh... the tears... You and I have had a similar beat down by life. I have lost three sons to second almost third trimester death.. cord accidents and still births.. I cannot imagine the intense pain of knowing your baby longer than I did, I have living children so I know... and then losing them. My father tried to kill himself three times and on the fourth try he succeeded. I was 19 years old. I married an abusive guy same year. Was in college, a parent, and working. Years later I decided to date here and there. From that I married a dutch guy and moved to holland. He is the source of my brutal poetry. He thought "teaching" my underage relatives things... would be a great idea, and last xmas i found out about it. He begged, I bailed... You and I can relate. Just remember.. what I told a friend earlier... You don't get a testimony with first having a test. I also held onto God. I am sure you will see your beautiful daughter again. You hang in there and keep being the strong, faithful champion you were created to be... for God, for YOU and for your daughter, who surely looks down on you and smiles whenever you do...

Read my poems

"In the depths" & "In your shadow where I shone"

Have a wonderful Thanksgiving. We have much to be thankful for...

..Misty

[kyam]

Misty, Misty, Misty....I would love to hold you and hug you right now and let your tears fall from the pain and understand how you must feel....I would be so honored to do so....My abuse is behind me now, I tried to put my childhood aside and be a mother. She brought me such comfort and a peek at the world of love. I am so thankful to have met you...You My Dear, are a precious soul...a kindred soul. A person of beauty and justice and yearning for love and innocence and security, which I want also..God will give us relief, I pray.....Love to you....thank you sincerely for your Wonderful and insightful review....Kyam