Stuck in an Elevator

Help me God

On this particular morning I was definitely in a hurry. My mind was all in a fog trying to remember what to do next. So I went to the pharmacy, ok mark that off the list, dropped the cleaning off, check, what else, WHAT ELSE???? Has panic mode really begun? Where are my standby anxiety meds..? Let me see, they are always......NO!! They are at home on the counter! What the ***k!!! How could this happen now?? Just calm down, calm down, go to your safe place on the beach, the water, the waves, it's relaxing, ok, got this, STOP!!! YOU IDIOT!! Don't back into my car! Horn blowing profusely..........one more stop, the script from the Dr.Williams on the 3rd floor of the Medical Arts Building and then done and then pick baby up from day care. Whew that's great. Pull in here, just run in. Hit the elevator button and get in 3rd floor. KABOOM!! Waking up, head hurting, figuring out, I'm stuck in this God forbidden elevator! My heads throbbing, look at my phone, I should be picking up Serenity from the day care in 14 minutes. The grandchild of my murdered daughter. Oh please get me out of here, dear God. Don't make my head go there without my medication......Kymber I love you Angel of mine and I will pick up your baby or have her picked up or something, Mommy will. I'll just call somebody! Wouldn't you know it, no service. Kymber why did you have to leave me baby? You waited so long to have a baby and be a Mommy and you were happier than I ever got to see you in your life. You just loved being a Mom. You were so loving, young lady and still going to nursing school. I'm so proud of you my Princess. Kymber can you tell me how am I going to make it without you? You know how much I love you. I have plenty of medicine in the cabinet from Dr. Williams to join you my Baby, because honestly Kymber, I can't do this without you anymore. I'm going to Hosparus grief counseling but I can't stop the pain. I know I shouldn't be laying all my problems on you either but I haven't lived without you for 28 years. Believe me I don't like it one darn bit, my baby, I really never thought you would leave me. You were the air that I breathe, my heart that beats and I know exactly what you want me to do and I will do anything for you is raise beautiful Serenity and give her the love and everything I gave to you. I know that Kymber, as sure as I'm standing here. Is that why I'm stuck in this elevator is so I can decide suicide or life? Oh no you don't either, this is just not fair to me, I don't have my anxiety medication (sobbing hysterically). Then I thought Kymber has me trapped for a reason for me to listen to reason about raising her child, oh I must be worrying her something awful. I beg your forgiveness Kymber. I don't mean to do this to you, baby girl, Mommy would never hurt you and that's what I am doing. I will stay here of course and raise precious little Serenity Faith, of course I will. Then I thought about that poor beautiful baby with it's Mommy gone at the hands of someone else and now Nana is letting her down too. Then a light came through at first dimly, then a little brighter and I heard, " Mom do not worry, you are the best mom I could have ask for and I have trust in you to raise my child as you did me with all the love you gave me, and you know I wouldn't trust her with anyone else, just God and you....". I stood very still and I knew it was Kymber and I was sobbing and about that time there were men at a door at the top of the elevator wanting to pull me out and they did. It took them several tries but I made it and all was well the day care called Papa and he picked Serenity up and she's healthy and happy. Thank you God and Kymber

Reviews

[Carbon Muse]

A truly touching and emotional piece. There is so much emotion in your words and it pulls the reader in, wanting to read more.

The bustle and noise of shops put me on edge, the constant noise of malls like a hive of bees drives me to just want to flee and the looks from the pharmacists as they look over your cocktail of medication, an arb collection to say the least, makes me want to never leave my front door again. Yet I know if I were to leave it up to the delivery service, I may never see daylight again.

One thing you might want to consider, is to split the piece into paragraphs, to make it more inviting and easier to read.

My sister is leaving for the coast and taking my new-born niece with her ... this alone is enough to make my heart break ... I don't know if I could ever bear the true loss of a little one, or even a "little one".

[kyam]

Thank you for responding to my writing, this is based on partial truth, the daughter of the child has passed away from the hands of a murderer. So it is special to me. My granddaughter is so precious and my daughter's spirit does visit. You are so merciful and gracious to give me your opinion, Thank you once again.....Kyam

[pink elephant]

What a piece wow I loved the way you gave me ur aspect so well and we'll thought ...😊

[BlaqkShadow]

This is agonizingly emotional and personal and I'm thrilled you decided to share it with us. You convey the most deep emotions so well and emphasize the panic with such clarity I could almost be there standing next to you. I am glad that it ends well and that you are able to find center and light in your life. X

[kyam]

Thank YOU so much for you constructive evaluation and kind words that keep me going, you are so gracious and such a good critic!!! I adore you....Kyam

[BlaqkShadow]

You are a good writer and a good person, you deserve any measure of happiness you can find, I'm truly glad I help in some way.

[Grace Brown]

I'm sorry i know im new to this website, but your piece is the first one i chose to read and it was a really good choice. It was really emotional and brought me to verge of tears. I would definitely read more.

[kyam]

Thank you Grace for reading my story, I do appreciate you taking your precious time out and also leaving a comment.......Kyam