Is she really dead?

     Did my daughter really get strangled that day?  Or is this a dream?  Was he in her apartment with heroin to camouflage the whole experience or was this a dream I'm never waking up from?  I was really there wasn't I?   There was a phone call from her manager and best friend saying " Get to her, I'm afraid for her", right?  I did get a neighbor to take me to her apartment in my pajamas and hold her 4 and a half month old baby girl "Serenity" while the detectives were in there checking out her dead body and everything else, right?  I was sitting outside the  apartment in shock, not knowing if I was alive or not, right?  This really did happen right?  My daughter was strangled to death, right?  I can wake up now right?  Did this really happen?  Please tell me.....Faith....Kyam....Anybody???