OMG! I did it to myself

I didn't realize I isolated myself as I started out as a child

Being isolated as a child with no hope

or any way to cope

when I finally got out my mind raced

I was like an animal that paced

I burned the streets and midnight oil

I couldn't go in or my blood would boil

that went on for a number of years

and gradually I switched gears

Then random years ago as I look back

I'm trying not to have a heart attack

because in all honesty of course

even after my divorce

I stayed at home inside

not going outside

isolated by choice you see

I'm so mad at me

There's no one to blame

I have the shame

of carrying thru

what I didn't want to do

The real joke prey tell

I'm back in hell

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Is always suprise for me I am not alone. I mean life experiences . I was very shy child to easy aim to bully. I not have friends . I CLOSE MYSELF FOWARD TO WORLD . Is very beautiful writing with words of pain but also desire about gentle beautiful life. Yes and keep writing too.

[alifeacoustic]

We never know just how deep we lock ourselves away until it is too late. Whether by choice or fear, we lead ourselves further into the darkness, until there is nothing left but ourselves and our thoughts.
I see a lot of myself in this piece. I hated my job so much I just didn't go back, left everyone behind and locked the door behind me. I am just starting to remember where I put the key now. I hope you do too.
Thank you for sharing

[kyam]

You have such a sweet soul about you and I do appreciate that. You see my childhood was so abusive and we were isolated from society except to go to school, not taught social skill, etc. raised in one room except to sleep. We were commanded to sit on a sofa day in and day out, my mother was a paranoid schizophrenic agoraphobic hypochodriac. So to do what she did is appalling to see. I'm sorry I didn't mean to chatter on and on Sweetheart. What I really mean to say is "Thank YOU from the bottom of my heart for your lovely words that are priceless to me." You are so very kind......Kyam

[alifeacoustic]

You're very welcome. And yes, I completely understand.

[kyam]

May God bless you with many blessings....Kyam

[alifeacoustic]

Many thanks, and to you too.