Losing Hope

I’m right here.

Clouded by the emotion,

Where the f**k is your devotion?

How much do you expect me to give?

I’m holding onto all that matters,

Climbing up a broken ladder.

Just one wrong step and I’ll crash. 

The oblivion is outstanding,

All the wrong ways, I am handling.

I’m so f*****g unsteady.

I hate you,

What am I even holding on to?

Too much hope,

Strangled by a rope.

But there is no permanent escape.

Of course you’re not here when I need you most,

I’m so unbelievably lost.

I’m a ticking bomb, ready to explode.

What do you expect me to say?

It’s all coming to an end, either way.

I’m slowly decaying.

I’m trying to reach out to you,

But what good could you do?

The silence, that’s what hurts.

The dangers of being alone,

Everything we had; gone.

I wish I could just disappear.

It’s all emptiness that remains,

This wasn’t supposed to end in pain.