WE MUST EXIST SOMEWHERE

08 14 14

These agitations simmer all too hotly
in the principles of pellmell philosophy
Nonetheless why the forlorn paralysis
of pale apathy in your reply to my intrepid
redefining for your comfort zone's arousal?
I can't deny your history of answering
unasked questions in your fluid ways of
facialized artistry nor can I mistake
your paleness for an angelic hue
Maybe my paralysis invades you
in battalions of reverse psychology
The aura we exude is powdery and
antithetical like the inside of a moth
Your intentions are disclosed in designated
servings of discoveries I wish I never chased
Emotions exposed to these exchanges
become all too intellectual for my deliberately
unclean but heavenly desires
You become so primitive when you undress
in my imagination manufacturing
a lawnmowed Eden taking cues
from the city limits of Utopia
In reality you balance smugly obvious suggestions
of sustained emotions and laconic crypticism
which I tolerate for crypticism is my comfort zone
I am loathe to swallow it but crypticism is safe

Author's Note

Reviews

[Frieda P]

I've come to the cynical conclusion that people don't have a freaking bloody clue unless it's s**t storming right above their own inane heads sometimes....we each need to look into our hearts and not blindly follow what irreverent rhetoric dictates and was pummeled into our innocent minds.

My new favorite word is crypticism .....right after I burn some new and improved bridges, just saying.

I wasn't going to blast this one, but there you have it. ;) Great stuff by the way... xo

100 martyrs a-milking and a partridge in a pear tree. :)

[kublakhan27]

LOL Holy cow Mrs.R...it is not unprecedented for you to leave me speechless with your reviews, but this is a different kind of speechless...you realize how badly I've wanted to say this for the longest time right? Of course, being the timid Benji that I am, I do nothing more than wrap it in, well, crypticism, and scatter this place with hints as to where my state-of-mind really resides...but I'm not Mrs.R, and she can get away with a lot ;) Thank you for not blasting my poem though...you know my heart couldn't handle that ;)

I wait patiently for the opportunity to turn some tables and burn some bridges...in the meantime, I write stuff like this...it isn't the first time I've taken this tone and it won't be the last, ha...

Thanks so much my dear friend :) xo

[Frieda P]

Ha now you have me laughing, sometimes there's only ONE way to say it and get your point across Benji....you can't always be PC, well Mrs R can't apparently! Sometimes you have to go full throttle barmy and let it all hang out, then go have a drink ;) Cheers love. xo

[kublakhan27]

Hahaha Well I'd like to think I'm not PC, just cryptic ;) Besides Mrs.R can get away with directness, I don't think I can, but I am going to go get that drink soon anyway ;) Thank you love...xo

[Sophy Freebirds]

"i can't deny your history of answering unasked questions in fluid ways of your facialized artistry"- jesus!! I loved this line. I once tried very hard to mould myself according to some other person.i tried to di it his way not mine... and later- ouch!! It hurt..This piece was so relateable Steve. "I wish i never chased!!"- the regret is palpable. Sometimes we are so engrossed in impressing that we lose trace of our own selves.. Thumbs up dude!! Well done ;)

~Sophy

[kublakhan27]

You've said it all here my friend...so glad you enjoyed this one, I'm amazing I got it out considering my mind was all wrapped up in knots when I wrote it haha Thanks so much Sophy :)

[Sophy Freebirds]

Was a pleasure as always dear :)

[Lydia Shutter]

Ah, yes, sometimes we are better off not knowing....the ostrich theory does work you know...keep your head in the sand and never look up. Smiling at the concept of a "lawnmowed Eden" ......where would all the fig leafs be if that happened? :) Is there a hidden meaning in the poetry we read? Do we read one in when there really is none to begin with? Or perhaps this is not about poetry at all.....perhaps this is about two people pretending to have a relationship...each with different agendas and motives. I have to say, your poetry makes me think....a lot....and that is a good thing. Also, the song you chose to accompany your words is one of my favorites from Jim Croce. Some lovers do expect you to carry the cross....the onus will not be theirs. Very good one here. Lydi**

[kublakhan27]

You have a way of tapping into my words that few people possess my friend...the older I get, the more time I spend with my head in the sand, figuring that what I don't know won't hurt me...a dangerous credo I know, but I already know enough to keep my mind occupied for life...your Eden observation is spot-on, I smiling too, knowing that you noticed that :) This is one of those pieces that makes perfect sense to me, but I could never articulate it for anyone else...I guess that's the beauty of poetry though...this poem didn't start with another person in it, but obviously it ended that way...

Yes, I love that song as I do all his stuff...I have the record here...it took forever to come up with a song for this one but once I remembered that one it was a no-brainer...so glad you enjoyed this one and understood it so well...thank you Lydi :)

[Lydia Shutter]

My pleasure!

[Jennie Baron]

This evokes to me two people attempting to talk but burying the truth in all kinds of crap and not communicating at all. From an artistic standpoint, it has a lovely flow when read aloud. I had to peruse it several times! And I love your choice of vocabulary here. Superb!

[kublakhan27]

Thanks so much Jennie...not much I can say, you've pretty much nailed it with your review...so glad you enjoyed it :)

[jacob erin-cilberto]

"cyrpticism" great word...and yes, we can't give it all away...we would be stripped down completely...
we need to leave something to the imagination...especially in our poetry...you can feel similarly to how i felt when i wrote a poem...but i am not giving it all away...not telling you exactly why i wrote it...

go your own way...in that "lawnmowed eden taking cues from the city limits of Utopia"
that is such creative/unique thought there...a couple lines only you would be able to come up with.

[kublakhan27]

Thanks so much Jacob, you always know just where I'm coming from...thanks so much for the kind words.

[Kenneth The Poet]

An excellent meditation for sure.

[kublakhan27]

Thank you Kenneth.

[AprilRN1210]

oh wow... this one hurts deep... I am literally sitting here with tears in my eyes... I can relate to soo many lines in here... honestly... this is extremely painful, my friend.... I want to just give you big squishy hugs.... this song makes the tears fall like rain... I haven't ever heard it, but it is so touching...
"Your intentions are disclosed in designated
servings of discoveries I wish I never chased".... amen!!!

this is raw and incredibly powerful... I am teary-eyed and breathless... stunning write.. :)

[kublakhan27]

This one came to me at about 2am this morning April, and it kept me awake for pretty much the rest of the night...I didn't know it was coming, but these are the kinds of things that come to me with little if any warning...yes, it's a lament on my part on many levels, though I think it has more to do with myself and how I relate to others, more than the other way around...having said that, it's been such a rough time for so many of us as of late and I guess I was conscious of that in some way when I wrote this...I'm glad that you could relate to it, not so much that it brought tears to your eyes, but that is what we do as poets after all...as Robert Frost said: no tears in the writer, no tears in the reader...

Took forever to settle on a song, then I remembered this one and I thought, yep, that's the one :) Thanks so much my friend, it means a lot to me that you could relate to this one ((big hugs))

[AprilRN1210]

I often feel misunderstood and that everyone is so happy with just the outside, they never look inside... it is very painful and makes me doubt myself and my worth.. add to that my shyness and insecurities then you have very awkward interactions usually... I think that is why I feel so free in my poetry, it lets me just be me, FREE... it lets me enjoy what I am for once... that is what my last piece was about.. letting go... you know I am ok with being different... I am ok with not fitting in... you are awesome... and you "relate" beautifully and unique... I for one adore you and your writing...awww yay!!! you remembered my hugs... thank you!!! ((BIGGER HUGS)) back at you:)

[kublakhan27]

Yes, it's a byproduct of the nature of the interaction that takes place on this site...poems such as this are unequivocally me, but you've also read that part of me that I badly want to be at times...I tend to jump between the two states in my writing...poetry is the ultimate declaration of freedom...it's the only form of literature that lends itself to this kind of freedom...I can't emphasize enough how glad it makes me knowing that you relate to both sides, but especially the confessional side...you know that I'm chronically shy and insecure, so you're certainly not alone with those feelings...but like you, I've learned to embrace the fact that I'm different and always will be different compared to whoever else may be around me at the time...thanks so much for being in my corner my friend...you know you always have my support in turn, and of course, my hugs :) xo

[AprilRN1210]

I have noticed.. I like both sides equally although these tug at my heart quite profoundly.. I appreciate you and feel the same... and love your hugs... :)