CIRCUMSTANCES, OH

02 06 14

Circumstances, oh
how they bludgeon me like nails
to a bed of poisoned taffy
and the torture it entails

Holy water I would swear
is in her sweat, it pools and falls
drop by drop on my recessed
identity till reason calls

Absolution, oh
how I crave it in this state
of hypothetical hand washings
and the touches they sedate

Enlightenment will not strike twice
and can't be bottled, for she's shattered
all the bottles I was hiding
for a bender on what mattered

So I'm sobered and deprived
of all aplomb; it paints the drain
of days I count with scratches on the wall
between me and her comfort's reign

Author's Note

A rare instance in which I said 'whatever, just write.'

Reviews

[Robbie~xoxo~]

I gotta tell you... you are one amazing free-form writer!

This struck a nerve... I felt the impending spiral of alcoholism...
the disappointment of disappointing... the shame...the torture of cravings....
It can ruin you... It can ruin lives....It can ruin your integrity, and sense of self....

I am very familiar with this theme (not of my own turmoil, but from another)...
It's painful, nevertheless....

Well penned, my sweet!... you always keep my mind and heart reeling!~xoxo~

[kublakhan27]

Thanks so much Robbie :) I wasn't sure how this one was going to pan out cuz I didn't ponder over it...but there was certainly a lot on my mind just the same. I'm sorry that it rekindled old memories for you but I'm glad that you could relate. Thank you as always for the kind words my dear friend...it means the world :) xoxo

[Robbie~xoxo~]

It means the world to me too... you did not bring me pain... but acknowledgement, for those who still suffer... I love them with all my heart, and will never give up hope to beat these demons... ~xoxoxo~

[DIVYA]

Powerful imagery that moved me. Absolution does not ever come from hand washing and holy waters. My favorite verse here ...

"Enlightenment will not strike twice
and can't be bottled, for she's shattered
all the bottles I was hiding
for a bender on what mattered "

Truly impressive!

[kublakhan27]

Thanks so much Divya :)

[Pryde Foltz]

Enlightenment will not strike twice
and can't be bottled, for she's shattered
all the bottles I was hiding
for a bender on what mattered

Some really clever and original turn of phrase, Steve.

[kublakhan27]

Thanks very much Pryde.

[Travis Gibson (poetic h..]

You have such heavy thought and imagery here. Each stanza demands attention... Well done!

[kublakhan27]

I'm glad you enjoyed it, thank you :)