THE INVALIDA Poem by kublakhan2703 ?? 01
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Still I can't account for her feelings There was time there is, and there will be time; in bed I can cross no threshold nor can I engage in funeral games for the coats of allies lost, lost to all of us in a shared flash of time and found on our own one by one Thinking is the lone exercise left to me, my thought is all that's left still I can't account for her feelings II. Windows are kind and conducive to morning, walls are the stolid antipodes of time Windows and walls are a human synthesis and yes I'm the only one who understands this The need of a window to feed us the morning is nothing to them; no one here is livened by the coming of the sun only the hastened coming of lust: the sweet injection given by one timeless frame and taken by the other as a wound takes a blade over and over over and over for nothing here is spilled Death is but a myth and nature is barren unlike the morning that I once had III. So I am without the morning (still); alone in my very own season of darkness Morning did come to me at a time when memory still wore the laurels of gratuity - I was content - in fact, hell-bent - on rising deftly with the dawn before I'd learned to rise for her I clung to her saddled to her ivory rays gripping her sultry ideals when she took me traveling through the smug dystopia of my own absence ignorance every memory, every anecdote a nest housing lines of impertinence waiting to grow, and wanting to die; bloodlines were for kin, not I She was driven she knew more than I knew about more than I so I clung to her and let her carry me all the way to the end of life and this surreal pasture where I lie awake now cheated out of day cheated by the day thinking never sleeping for there's nothing left to dream about beyond here IV. My eyes now so accustomed to the lack of windows don't tell me when I'm blinking anymore I live in the heightened shadow of live burial with no vital appetite and no external light to lure the shadow away and yet I've more eternal light than any window could exude I've as much eternal light as she who left me here though not before acquainting me with these (unsynthesized) walls that deflect my acquaintances back at me (over and over) So who blinded me this darkness or the dawn and if it was the latter, before or after I outgrew her? I've always known the morning to sour under grey but always to return; is it possible that I had grown enough to blind her or even enough to taunt the bounds of her perception? They are not used to that sort of thing around here, leading one to wonder why I'm still here V. They don't change I don't stop; why am I still here? here alone and where is she? Out cavorting with immortal youth (her own kind) sheathing their immortal thrusts while I lie here coated in a grey muck of wrinkles and matted hair like one awaiting mummification? I am her kind can she hear? I am her kind I have her light (can she hear?) I do I am yet I am naught I am we were © 2012 kublakhan27Author's Note
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StatsAuthorkublakhan27Nova Scotia, CanadaAboutMy first book is out! Any comments that anyone may have to offer regarding my work would be deeply appreciated, as I'm yet to get a review. www.amazon.com/Waltz-Around-Swirls-Steven-Fortune/dp.. more..Writing
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