Suicide Note

Dear whoever,

As I write this with my last breath,

I find myself still caring,

I find myself looking at the words I am typing,

finding myself in this world has not happened,

so I find myself giving up on hope.

As I write this note,

trying to get out what I want,

the words no longer have meaning,

to you maybe but not to I,

the words became letters on paper.

What I want to say,

I can't,

or maybe won't.

Maybe it's my time,

time to move on,

I've been a good soldier,

but I am done now.

Until I hear my name called,

I shall not return to this life,

or place I shall call hell,

I run from you,

but I want to stay. 

What comes out,

is not right,

I try to say bye,

but instead I say this,

"I live,

I die.

I've tried,

and tried.

Nothing I do is right,

nothing is left,

so I type this,

to say good bye"

As I type my note,

note to say night forever,

I see tears running down the paper,

are they mine?

I no longer know,

what is the reason for me here.

Maybe if one thing had gone right,

I would not write this,

but here I am writing this,

which means,

it is time,

time to say goodbye to all.

Author's Note

I am still here and alive but don't want to be

Reviews

[AmandaPanda]

Okay first I'll say I love the poem. Second, I truly know how you feel. The pain, the sadness, the lonesomeness. I know all of it inside and outside. But know that people are here for you. Times are tough but you are strong because you are still alive and breathing. But nice poem. :)

[ATG]

A very touching and personal letter. I can really understand you feel strongly about this which is unfortunate. There is always someone who cares for you even if you don't know it. I'm glad to hear you are still alive and hope you stay that way for a long time.

[No name]

Aww this is sad for no one should feel like they don't belong or want to live. Try to stay strong and know people care. Nice write.