Depression

     Imagine getting up everyday after sleeping about 12 hours and waking up exhasted even though you slept through the night. Waking up not wanting to even get out of bed. Forcing yourself to do whats normal to other people. Doing what everyone else does. Showering, getting dressed, brushing your hair and teeth.

       Some days not wanting to ever get out of bed, just sleep the day away but you know you can't. It's like any movement isn't worth it. All you ever want is to be normal but you are not. Maybe all you want is for people to understand what you are going through.

    People think everything is okay when it is not. You walk around with a smile on your face like you are the happiest person alive, when actually you just want to curl up into a ball and cry. You could care less about life. You just want it to end. You just want to be happy.

       Even if you can imagine that you are still not living a day in my life.