Pain of Past

When pain comes along
As do the thoughts
That I thought were left in past,
Yet its memory of what was
Nots what to come
That haunts me more then
I ever thought possible.

Doubts start flowing
Through my mind
One after another,
Am I good enough?

I have lost much
Maybe
To maybe finally find
What I was always looking for,
Someone who truly loves me
And I love them.

Pain still flows from the past
Yet now theres something else
Love it is enough
But am I enough?

Is everything I was told
as a child about myself true?
Pushing the doubts away
Fighting through the pain
Is something I can do,
Something I've done for years.

Knowing I'm loved
keeps me strong
I can fight
And I will!