Who cares really

After all these years of life

I wish just to hide forever

and sleep forever.

Not live another day

Just want everything gone from my mind,

I wish to be normal,

but what even is that?

The voices screaming in my head

"your such a screw up! "

"you can't do anything right"

The number of people telling me to just end it?

Countless.

The number of people who care?

I could probably count on one hand sadly.

Showing friendship 

is not something many feel like doing anymore.

The voices say

nobody cares but I hope they are wrong.

If I died would anybody notice?

If I ended up in a coma

from listening to the voices 

would my friends come to see me?

Doubtful.

My family is online

I have few true friends,

but one is all I need really.

The one person to understand

to listen and say 

"don't listen. I really do care."

Every broken promise

equals more pain and hurt.

Another reason to continue with the plans

I made short time back.
I'm not scared of death,

I would often welcome it with open arms.

I would no longer have to feel the hurt,

the pain would be gone.

Would there be consquence ?

You left me hanging again and again,

acting liked you care 

then disapearing for no reason. 

Just shows that few really do care.

That if I was gone tonight 

you wouldn't even know!

The blood running down my arms,

you don't see it 

but will soon enough.

For everyone who

hurt me 

there will be a new mark

and more blood spilled 

Author's Note

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