Finally Peace

As I look at the sun setting,

seeing what I see is not normal

I see my death,

not my life,

not the brightness,

most probably see,

I don't see happiness,

I see peace in death,

Something I no longer fear,

its unknown,

You can die any moment any time,

Peacefully or in your last minute,

YOu can easily kill yourself,

much like I think about doing,

on a daily basis,

I don't fear what most would,

I find peace in dying,

I would no longer feel the pain,

from my past,

I would no longer watch,

the people smiling around me,

I wouldn't have to pretend,

everything is all right,

because finally I found peace,

just not the way you would think.

I'm talking death,

yes,

Suicide,

but not for why you think

The pain is too much,

the voices,

the flashbacks,

having to watch what is around me?

I don't want to live a lie,

its not worth it,

I'm not okay,

well I will be soon!