On The Inside (Gold)

Dealing with inner demons

I’m telling tales of trouble

And how much I have spent

Worrying about the rapture

And all these great event

I guess I just can’t see right

Through my hollowed eyes

I guess I just can’t feel this

My minds wrongful demise

I’m so bruised and bloody

Underneath my skin

Forget about these organs

I really don’t need them.

My soul is slashed and diced up

My heart a deranged mess

With all these things we said to me

I can’t drink another glass.

Stop forcing lies down my throat

Stop pretending you’re so right.

Stop taking my breathes away

And dimming all my light.

I cannot stand this poison

You keep dripping in my lungs

I cannot take these feelings

I’d rather just be numb.

Everyone here loves you

So I just can’t confess

These painful things you do to me,

And all of my regrets.

If there is heaven

Well babe this ain’t it.

If there is a hell

I hope it’s not worse than this.

I wonder when you’ll leave me,

So I can stand alone.

I wonder why you need me,

Can’t you just go home?

There is no place willing to take you

Because you take it all

Laughing all the way to me

You love to see me fall.

But baby there will be a day

When you are so long gone.

Because with each new day

I am becoming much more strong.

One day I will kick you out

And lock up all my doors

Through the windows you will not see

All your lovely gore.

Peace will live through me

And alone you are so poor.

Rain oh rain go away

Never come back any day

You are not welcome in my soul

I’ll make heaven where you placed

Hell

And trust me I will become

Gold.

Author's Note

written around or near Feb 24, 2013

Reviews

[Paige Turner]

This is a great poem, I think. So much emotion. It's beautifully crafted. I think you did a wonderful job.

[Imperfection2aT]

I think this poem can be interpreted in many ways, and that is the mark of a truly wonderful piece. It's a really deep work that you've crafted here. Way to go :)