Nightmares Start Upon WakingA Poem by kris reedThe desire to sleep till things are better... (Dec. 2013)Nightmares Start Upon Waking Hope
holds my heartache Coos
to me my mistake Cradles
me to all my lows Flocks
my dreams in murdering crows
If
I call you here will you be disappointed? To
your happiness will I be anointed? I’ve
already crawled into my coffin And
from its remove I dream of you often
But
kisses wake with dry lips Touch
slips away with cold fingertips The
only traveler on my skin is tears They
catch and drown me in lonely years
In
sadness I look to your picture And
next to you I wish I were But
it’s not my face there making you smile Instead
a beauty with hugs that pile
It
makes me sad for wanting your love Wishing
that into your life I could shove With
poems, letters, and songs that linger Dreams,
gifts, and memories that grow on fingers
Am
I wretched for casting out my desires? Trying
to ignite your heart in a million fires I
wish I knew where all this was heading For
uncertainty is my constant dreading
Can
I touch your heart with words? Is
this effort simply absurd? I
want to craft my work upon your skin Allow
me to show my love without chagrin
But
for now each line cuts deeper into my veins When
next I see you what will remain? Can
you love what’s open and broken? Or
are you saying “no” with words unspoken?
I’ve
wrecked myself and cannot eat I
wither more with every week I
write to myself of all my pain To
another weakening absent your frame
I
try to believe that I can hold on a little longer That
soon I’ll know about what you ponder But
my love seeds misery into your ventures And
grows an obsession that never cures
So
I’ll lay myself into another cold sleep With
the constant lullaby of my weeps And
I pray that I will never wake
Because
in my dreams my misery you forsake © 2013 kris reed |
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