Dead For a While

Trapped in an abusive relationship.

Disconnected and discontent

The charred remains of my soul

Harbor a bundle of dormant rage

Longing for overdue release.

  

Patiently waiting for the floor to drop

Provoking the gods and never adhering to STOP

But life won’t let me go,

You won’t let me go.

 

But here in the darkness

The place I’ve come to love

They know me

My emptiness shines on kindred spirits

I don’t have to wonder what’s wrong with me

Because here in the darkness,

There’s nothing wrong with me.

 

I can’t keep hiding,

Building this fortress of deceit;

Darkness is not a convenient disguise

It’s where my heart truly lies.

 

I beg of you,

Let me go.

 

God,

Please

Just let me go.

 

I have to find a place among these ashes

So I can rise like a phoenix from the remains.

 

But if you stay

You will surely be my demise

This is where our legend dies

But darling,

Don’t cry

We’ve been dead for a while.

 

 

Author's Note

Thanks for reading. Feeling very scattered so not the smoothest of words, sorry. Thoughts are welcome.

Reviews

[B-poet]

Very deep and wittingly intriguing. This would make a an awesome monologue or a stream of consciousness thought during a scene of a suspense thriller. A riveting write and read. Nice work. :)

[Kristin Lee]

Very interesting idea! Thanks so much Bpoet.

[Jack...]

You speak from your heart it seems and when that is the case, nothing else matters. Often we have to force close things in order to move on to another place. Some people however, just don't get the message until we lay it out in black and white. Very nicely done Kristin.

[Kristin Lee]

Some people never get the message. I've had to completely hide my where abouts from him after I left. I haven't seen or spoken to him in more than six years, and yet last year, he tracked me down through my author platform and started trying to interject himself back into my life. Luckily I'm tech savvy enough that I blocked his access and I didn't have any info posted that he could use to find my physical location. But now I know...he never intended to let me go.
Thanks for the kind words Jack. They mean a lot.

[Astro]

I really like the voice in your poem as it says, "Darkness is not a convenient disguise
It’s where my heart truly lies." I can picture comments and arguments flying about and causing the walls of a relationship to rot. The pleading and honest voice is very strong in this one Kristin. The last line was fitted beautifully to sum up the thoughts of the poem.

[Kristin Lee]

Thanks Astro. It so important in any relationship to always be yourself. If you can't, or if someone can't accept you because they are threatened by your light, its never going to work...those very arguments you speak of are a perfect example. The monster who inspired this piece was vanquished from my life a long time ago, but he still try's to track me down through my writing platforms/social media and interject himself as often as possible. The only way I can fight back is to refuse to be his victim anymore rendering him powerless. And believe me when I say, he is one of the few real monsters in this world. I really appreciate the compliments on the poem. I'm glad the piece came across constructive and not hateful.

[Astro]

The pen truly is mightier than the sword!

[John Alexander McFadyen]

This packs a heavyweight punch in its progression. The protagonist appears a victim until the last stanza when there is a hint of taking some control. The final sentence is powerful.

[Kristin Lee]

Yes, the ability to take control. That bit was important to impart. Because I don't see myself as a victim, I never did. not even while under the control of that monster. So glad you saw that :)