mother

In the shadow of your holy cross

is where I stand

buried under all the love

you gave too late

In the shadow of your holy cross

is where I stand before you,

incomplete and scared

I wonder how many times you even thought 

about my broken heart

and if only a mother's heart would be what they say

no holy cross's shadow would make you put me in the dark

In the shadow of your holy cross

I tried to tell you 

who I was

But if I speak just one more word

in the shadow of your holy cross

you leave my dead

In the shadow of your holy cross

I trusted you 

with all my tears, gave you

my sense of self

and in the shadow of your holy cross

you put me,

for you did not know the words

I speak to you

In the shadow of your holy cross

don't try to find me now

In the shadow of your holy cross

is where I disappear.