clutch

this song means too much to me

and i can't listen to it

remembering that was my first hope of you

things took me places i've never been

and years later i can

smell you on my skin

and i heard you got married 

he treated you bad

and i can't help but feel a bit responsible

if i would have let things end better

in this world of electronic connection

you're a ghost

not that i'm looking

but curiosity leads you to your past

i hope that things worked out for you

we snapped like a broken leg

your father got divorced and then he was dead

i wish they didn't put me in the middle of it

i'll remember his eyes watching the play that i replaced him

i'll never forget those eyes

long after we were through

you waited in supermarket parking lots

waiting for me to get home

you always freaked me out

i always wondered what would have happened 

if i took a different road home

but you never stopped running to me

you told me about what he did to you

tell me Amy what was i supposed to do

you'll always be a part of me

although i have no idea where you are

and i know you can't find me

no late night surprises

no runners to my car

you're stuck in a memory

i don't mind that

no, i don't mind that

i probably sleep too long

making up for the deprivation

i know you wanted to teach preschool

a calling found me when journalism went flat

i make my living listening to broken souls

who am i to wonder

probably an overactive mind

i hope you had that baby he took away from you

to nestle in your heart and keep growing in your head

basically i always wanted you to be happy

even if i was the one who let you down

i hope you remember me from the start and not the ending

you forever changed me

the hang on was a bit too much

whenever you hear that song

                            think of me

 

Reviews

[Marie Harrison]

Oh this was so sad
Your poem was so full
of emotion.
Wonderful write.
I'm sure she thinks of you
But hopefully she's let go

[Becky C Strukamp]

you forever changed me

Oh how that holds true for so many. Right on there my friend.

Enjoyed the poem.