The Saddest Day

watching my now ex-wife driving away with the kids - yes they will be back, but nothing compares to the hurt of watching them leaving, seeing them crying as they leave because they do not want to go.

The saddest day in my life
The one where I watched my two precious boys
Driving away with their mother
Crying not wanting to leave me

Never have I felt
So alone
So helpless
So empty


I tell myself it’s only for a few days
Then they will be back
To have fun, to smile again
To be kids again

The torture of watching them go
Knowing I will not be there for them
Protect them from the horribleness
The person they are scarred of

The joy of knowing
I am their safe haven
Were they can relax
And enjoy life as children should

I am going to hate Fridays
Yet love them at the same time
Friday is the day they go home to their mothers
Friday is also the day they come home to me

I can never forgive the hurt
The hurt she has caused me
The hurt she has caused the children
That can never be forgiven or forgotten

Reviews

[Coyote Poetry]

Some pain is felt by many. The children are paying too. I was a weekend kid myself. Me and my sister passed around. Old wise Grandpa saying. If nothing good to say. Say nothing. The pain is very heavy in the poem. For the sake of children we must keep the hate and being pissed off hidden away from the kids. A powerful and sad poem.
Coyote

[NoneOfYourBusiness akaK..]

thank you exposing the raw pulse of pain inherent in fathers at divisions in love and life so poignantly~ many~ many forget that it takes two to love as well as it takes two to disengage~ often times the male is given the bad rap and the responsibility to shoulder the full bame~ in anger many forget that both genders have a heart as you so affectingy relate through this poetic~

[Samuel Dickens]

I think society often doesn't have much sympathy us guys. We're expected to be tough--right? As you must know, our hearts can break, too, and especially so under the kind of conditions you write about.

[Crowley]

Wow strong stuff. Such a hard place to be in. It is really good that you are there for them and that they know that, that is all you can ask for in a situation like that. I enjoyed reading this...sad but relevant. Nice job.