How I'm Feeling

just found out my long distance bf may be cheating on me

I can't believe you did this,
I can't believe you would.
You were supposed to be here
and love me as you could.

I never would have thought
your excuses would be exposed,
lies bursting at the seems
after all the love you've shown.

How could you even do this,
how could I let this happen?
It all adds up now,
and I feel like I never mattered.

Who is that b***h who texted me
from your cell phone?
I thought I was your only.
I would have never known...

Why did you lie to me?
Why couldn't you tell the truth?
How could you just lead me on,
innocent in my youth?

And now you're not texting me back
what I want to hear.
You're texting me pointless statements
that don't discount my fears.

To be honest I don't believe it,
I don't know if I have the strength
to realize what's happening
and keep you at arms length.

You know all I've been through
and you know how this looks.
You're not even denying it,
just ignoring me like a crook.

It all makes since now,
you always being "busy".
But I don't understand why
you wouldn't just tell me?

If you'd just told me the truth
you'd have nothing to lose;
you're miles away, we only see each other
once in a blue moon.

Yet you told me you loved me
and we only really text.
Why would you waste your time
when you have another girl left?

I don't understand your motives,
I'm so confused.
I was hoping to build
a future with you.

Author's Note

Will add more later, just don't have time now.

Reviews

[Katrina Lynn.]

I agree with the previous comment that 'It's all just a game' But quiet frankly That's only the view of some. A great write, good job Kayla This is stunning. You put real emotion into this and it's wonderful. S****y about your boyfriend though .-. Keep writing.

[Baby Ricochet]

OOH. Batrayal. Always painful. Great write Kayla

[afra]

great write ..,..as usual

[Coyote Poetry]

Hard to keep your sanity when people tell you lies. I like the flow of thoughts and the questions in the poem. I believe if you do bad things. Will catch up with you. I like the strong ending to the excellent poem.
Coyote

[Crazy Cat Man]

this is a good poem and good to let your emotions now. but ur a teen right? blah its almost no teens should really date at all. its mostly physical. for teenage boys just want to have sex. u should wait longer to wait. High SChool days are mostly just physical. of course he would want more options. its all a game.