little buds of ears

fine little fingers bent holding content....

life

thumb...

so perfect in the womb

 

we had to go to a big hospital

to make it seem

ok

 

i being the father but it wasnt my decision.

a boy apparently though what was the difference once

it had been done

what was the difference a mere proceedure

would make

 

i may have not been there since it was all my

fault anyway having lost jobs, been

irresponsible having one daughter i could

barely save

 

and so ripped from my wifes womb

the lttle fellow

you had to give him credit

hey?

startled into breathing at three months

 

it (the boy) must have been cold lying naked

in a metal pan

dying, dying very slowly

indeed breath

 

having been ripped out

 

the wife blamed me as i lay out in the lobby sleeping on a vinyl couch 

waiting for the proceedure to be done

a nurse walked out of the hospital, quit the profession

the warm summer wind blew the silent trees out the window as

 i woke  

 

meanwhile the wife

came to terms with what her good for nothing husband had done

 

meanwhile the wife came to terms

with me

the wife came to terms with her husband ......later she took the ring off her 20 year old finger

 

the marrigae like a final act continued for a year or two

and then it died as well.