My confessions

In a short amount of time, i've been blessed enough to be a part of your life..

And I couldn't be more thankful..

But in this short amount of time, i've also become wishful..

I find myself wishing to be with you..

When I know it's something that won't come true..

I wish you could hold my heart in your hands so you could feel the hurt it feels..

I wish you could look thru my eyes so you could see what they see..

I wish you could dive into the depths of my soul so you could see what it is you do to me..

I wish you would tell me what it would take to make you happy..

Thru your holds, I can feel that your heart is cold..

But I wish you'd hold me tighter & never let go..

I wish you could hear me..

Do you even see me??

I wonder if you'll miss me..

When you look up one day to realize i'm missing & no longer there..

It's going to tear me apart when i'm no longer here..

But I refuse to stay..

I can keep exposing my feelings to you but there's really nothing left for me to say..

I can't convince a mind that's already made up..

We're not even together & it feels like we're heading toward a big breakup..

I wish this didn't have to happen so but we both know where this road that we're on, is going to go..

I will say tho..

I like you..

I'd have to..

To invest five months into you..

I mean, what's not to like..

You're beautiful, funny, ambitious, a little ditzy, full of potential, free spirited & an extrodinary woman..

That's just a few things that stand out about you..

We should be able to remain friends but I think we both know that can't work..

I wish I could say i'm all good but i'm deeply hurt..

But why should we continue to keep going down this dead end road..

When we know that at the end, we'll be together yet alone...