Guilty

Time..

Was not on my side..

I was racing over to plead my case..

Trying to figure out the lies I was going to say to her face..

She had all the evidence she needed..

To give me life without her love..

Because of all the poor choices I had made..

But if she was to ask what I was pleading..

You know I had to plead not guilty..

For I couldn't tell the truth, I couldn't let her leave me..

To be honest, I really didn't know what to say..

Or even what to do..

I just knew that I had to sell the lie that I was going to tell her..

Before..

She gave me my sentence..

She had so many witnesses..

I was down on my knees begging for forgiveness..

As I walked into the room..

With a face so blue..

I was to ready to die if I was going to lose her..

I talked a good game..

Said whatever I needed to say to make sure she stayed..

She looked at me with her eyes full of tears..

I closed mine & allowed the tears to stream down my face..

Hoping it would take her back to the days..

When everything was good..

But the look she was giving me, gave me reason to believe that it wasn't going to end good..

She had found me guilty.

Of 1st degree, infidelity & life without her love..

As her lips moved, I didn't hear a word..

I read the words she spoke & I knew my world was no more..

I heard nothing yet felt everything..

As her love was being extracted from my heart..

Slowly but surely, my heart stopped beating.

And the last thing I remember before leaving was the look in her eyes as she stood there watching....