Lost in my mind, lost in my belief

Doing some thinking & I find myself questioning my belief..

My mind is in an ocean of beliefs & i'm lost at sea..

On a raft, down on my knees..

Where I find myself questioning what I believe..

I've been praying day in & day out..

That God returns me to where my heart desires to be..

He's helped me, he's guarded me..

From the rage that is the ocean waves..

But i'm not really moving or i'm moving at a slow steady pace..

I don't understand why he's keeping me from where I want to be..

I've changed who I am, i'm a complete different man..

My faith has been rebuilding but as of late, I've been second guessing..

If God has given us the power of free will..

Then why is he keeping me from you...