Rainbow Fluids

How much I hate Tony Hope. :]

&here i am kissing my fingertips to keep them from numbing
while my stomach bends and breaks like i did when we made love
my entire body is lifeless; you have taken everything from me
the moon is so beautiful tonight and it's so high in the sky
i so wish i could shine for you and the be the blue she is to you
like her eyes, her long hair, her supermodel body
i am nothing compared to god's greatest creation
but crumbs and felt pieces of a hell-ridden volcanic rock
risen from the depths of fire and haze, i am hideous
&here we go, holding hands and pretending everything is okay
we can push each other sideways and let it go with a smirk
neon lights, tight shirts, big dicks, college dorm rooms
i know what you do and i'm vulnerable to your masks
my red nails touch my lips just to keep the rest of my body from trembling
fear punishes my body with sweat and shivers like a nightmare
like the ones i have of you kissing other girls, prettier ones
in the sunshine, i am ugly; and in the darkness i am bearable
which is why you want to lights off, no protection, put it in
because all i am to you is an easy barbie doll will nice teeth
&here i am rubbing my huge thighs profusely trying to remove this itch
you're my itch and i just can't get you off; i need you and i want you
my skin is turning red and blood is rising, i can feel it
just like i can feel you stab me in the heart like you do with words
you see her, you hug her, you want her, you grab her
i can see it in your eyes that your love for me has gone
but the moon loves me and wants me for it shines for me every night
your money is nothing compared to your actions
the blues that i sing is nothing compared to your hues of color
&i don't care!
i don't care about your artwork, or whatever that s**t is called
i am vomiting in the porcelien never-mentioned toilet
spitting up words of hatred and remorse for myself, leaving them
to sit and dissolve in the spittled water reflecting rebellion
to look into that toilet and see your face with its flawless wonders
every pore filled with beauty and every crease smoothed with perfection
let's plug in the missing cords and let the ball break
because baby, i am losing my mind every day in every way
it will break me down lower and lower, until i cannot hover any longer
&here we are sitting next to each other, groping areas that
we shouldn't be in public, but we don't care because we're teenagers-
right?
you tell me it's okay and you're there for me, but you're not
you're a derranged form of sam or ryan in a beautiful face with sweat marks
&i hate you, i f*****g hate you
but i love you

Author's Note

This was written to defy the laws of writing, and any errors should be ignored.

Reviews

[Micheal Teal]

Beautifully written.

There are no errors in a piece like this because art at its core is a soul based endeavor and one cannot critique the soul, one can only bless it.

Bless you and this beautiful piece of writing.