suffer in dark

im sorry what ive done, and what im going to do. mum i never ment to hurt you.
but this is all too much, i dont know how to go on.
but ill stay, suffer in the dark.

i have my prince, my knight in shining armor.
but not even he can save me from the night mares, of what you put me through.
the anger, the pain, the worthlessness.
i'll grab my knife,
ill slice up my skin,
and remember all the things i can do.
ill be happy for a while.
i'll smile and say im okay.
and then someone will say something,
something to make things crumble down.
and then ill be off in the same pattern.
of pain, anger, and feeling down