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So guess f*****g what.
I'm not strong enough.

Hey mum, are you listening?
I can't take you anymore.

All you fakers, with your poisonous problems
I can't juggle you anymore.

Get it through your thick skull
I'm not strong enough.

 

I'm not STRONG ENOUGH to pick up every little problem
And juggle them in these two, clumsy hands.
I'm not SELFLESS ENOUGH to keep soothing you,
When a thousand vicious voices are screaming in my own brain
I'm not ever gonna be GOOD ENOUGH for myself
Never gonna fufil any of your demands

 

I've given you all everything
Every f*****g peice of my soul
FOR WHAT?
Are you happy, that you've sucked me dry?
I hope you're estatic that I can't even be arsed to lie
When you ask if I'm okay
When you ask if I'm fine
LOOK AT MY FACE
DO YOU THINK I'M FINE?! 

 

I'm not okay, and thanks to you its likely I never will
Be okay - this is what they call a breakdown
This is what they call a breakdown
On the edge of reason
On the edge of insanity
Clinging on to the love which has turned to hate
Like sour milk, 
Or rotten eggs.

So heres something nice for you to read, a thankyou before I commit this deed
Like I'm winning an oscar, because my greatest, most selfless act will be becoming deceased

I'd like to thank the first guy I ever trusted, because he was just swell
Secondly I'd love to thank, the family I know and adore
You guys, wow, you're something else, even when you block every door
You've shown me everything I need to know, and then a little more
You've shown me even the people you love the most, screw you over, insult your every fibre
My friends, the fake ones I stuck to, yeah you just taught me so much
Even when I'm talking you out of taking your life you still find time to stick the middle finger up

Thirdly I'll get all choked up, as I thank the one who means the most
Kirsty May Mackmurdie
For being an ugly girl. 

Reviews

[Secondhand Tink]

This.
Is.
Awesome.

I don't know what to say to it but I'm kinda glad you managed to put all that bad feeling to create such a good poem.