monarch butterfly

this could actually be a very long text message

u either nudged me or threw me into this year's Manic Phase lol

it's almost like taking a handful of uppers all the time

but mostly in terms of the endless energy + non-stop mouth + not sleeping part

so... all of it

ugh i know the sound of yr voice too well

the stupid "hey" u said last friday still gives me chills

but not the good kind anymore (how sad)

ARE YOU HAPPY NOW?? but literally

i'm trying to care but i'm too distant from u now

it sucks that we vibed too well, that we were too good at making disasters

out of what could've been just really cool miracles

i can't even think about kissing anyone ever again

why did u have to make yr mouth into a monarch butterfly

and follow the storms that i brewed in my sweaty palms

like seriously why did u have to bruise me on a week night

like why did u enable me to see every star in the milky way

like wasn't breaking my windshield enough lol

i'm tired of romanticizing yr a*s but u make it so easy

i shouldn't listen to that playlist on 8tracks anymore

because i am supposed to be busy resenting u

but dude. we had a sick friendship in both meanings of the word

and i miss u the way that i miss razor blades or blackouts or artificial tears

take that how u want

because it's true

and both ways are repulsively meaningless now

in hindsight, under blacklights, near the skyline

where i basically chill w yr ghost

Author's Note

improper grammar forever, text-talk abundant, this is how i talk in my head

Reviews

[Chekochan]

I really like the "text talk" style 😂 Super fun to read
Favorite parts are "I can't even think about kissing anyone ever again" "enable me to see every star in the Milky Way" and "chill with your ghost"