Rest in Peace - Charlene Elizabeth Bailor.

I'm not good with death, and this loss that I've had in my life recently is breaking me down. Please read this just out of respect and comment if you would, please. I would greatly appreciate it.

At first, I didn't think that I could really understand exactly why God took
the greatest girl in the world out of my life. I still don't, really. I mean, I've
never been one to question God's motives, but apparently there's more to it
than I thought. That's a story I don't want to tell though. Charlene was the girl
that always came up to me in the hallway and hugged me just to let me know
that she DID care. She never turned her back on me, nor did she ever have a
crossed word with me. She always stood firm in what she believed in, whether it
be love or just some random conversation that she just so happened to always
make better. On the worst days ever, she'd always come by to lend her love and
stretch out her arms for a hug. Those days are over for me now though. No more
of those amazing hugs. No more seeing that wonderful smile that could brighten
even the most upset person's day. It's like...when you have a pet, for instance..and
you always think that it's going to be there when you wake up..but then one morning
it's not. I know that's a very bad scenario and comparison to this current situation,
but it's making me lose hope in myself. I need my best friend back. I know that it'll
never happen until I pass away and cross over to the next life that's set for me in
the future...but I don't know if I can wait that long. I've seen her in my dreams..felt
her putting her arms around me..as if she's trying to lend her comfort..but it's not
the same as actually HAVING HER HERE to say that things will work out and always
turn out for the best. She always had a way with words. No matter how bad my days
would be going, she'd ALWAYS know the right words to say to cheer me up. When I
felt like my world was crashing down around me, Charlene was there. Always. Now
she's gone. It didn't officially hit me until I was sitting there...staring at her urn...wanting
to cry, but nothing would even come out. I feel like the worst person ever because
I couldn't even shed a tear...even though I could feel it tingling the edges of my eyes.
I miss her so much. Nothing can or ever will replace her. It's impossible. I just really
wish that she was here to help me through this..because trying to make it through
on my own...is killing me.

I love you Charlene. I miss you SO much. Noone will EVER know how much your
kindness meant to me..as well as your friendship. I'll NEVER forget you. EVER.



Charlene Elizabeth Bailor ~ 05/24/1990-12/25/2008

You will FOREVER remain in my heart, and also the hearts of MANY others.