Chapter Five : Fear of Loss

Her heart was troubled, and she feared that she would lose him...

Her mind had been racing constantly. It had seemed like a year since they had last spoken to one another. She was growing extremely frustrated. He had not made any attempts to contact her at all. She was very worried about him and afraid that he'd lost interest in her. Perhaps it was simply a foolish doubt that she had. Yet, every attempt that she had made to contact him had failed. Her mind grew weary. She had began to have difficulty eating and sleeping. She knew that she had to do SOMETHING...but what? Many thoughts zoomed through her head as she tried to think of a way to show him that she DID still care. Suddenly...it came to her!

 

She would write him a novel full of her most cherished memories and thoughts! Some would involved past events, others would be hopes of future events. She hoped with all of her heart that it would work successfully. The painful thought of him having another had been troubling her terribly the whole entire time that they had been apart. She had dreamed of their grand future together. They would have children, three or four as a matter of a fact! Their house would be beautiful. Gray with white shutters. Simply the most FASCINATING thing that she'd seen throughout her entire lifetime! There would be SEVERAL cats running around, prancing about as if it was their "kingdom". She was wishing that he hadn't stopped waiting for her and that she was not alone, yet again.

 

Her heart was feeling a great deal of pain from these agonizing thoughts. For once she wanted happiness, love, and she TRULY wanted to be with him. These are the things in which she felt when she gazed at him. He was an interesting fellow. He had many characters that she had never known a man could ever have. He was honestly JUST LIKE HER in SO many different ways. The simple thought of him made her wonder as to where he was at. It was nearly five thirty in the morning at his current location. She was going crazy without him.

 

Her heart spoke to her and knew that it couldn't handle sorrow unless it was absolutely necessary. She also knew that if she lost him, she would most likely NEVER find another guy out there that was like him. He was one that did not fear much, nor was he hurt by much. He seemed as if he was worryless, somewhat free in a way. There was one thing that she knew for sure. She would not be able to handle it if the two of them separated from one another. She would rather feel the wrath of hell than have to lose him. That was her proof to herself that she was officially love-stricken.

Author's Note

Please excuse me if there are grammatical errors. I was tired when I typed this.