If I Have Your Blessings

Would I be doing you injustice

If I fell pregnant again?

Would it hurt you

If it was by that same man –

The one you would have called dad?

I know he didn’t want you

And I wonder what makes me think

That he would want your sibling.

But something’s different –

He’s not that same b*****d.

Yes, he HAS changed somehow.

Maybe he’s just getting older.

Maybe he feels life growing colder.

I think he’s realising

How empty his life is;

How much he needs someone.

But I guess that doesn’t mean

That it’s going to be me

That he chooses.

But aren’t the things we want

Worth the chance?

Worth the risk?

Oh, my sweet Samantha,

I never want you to think

That I’m being disrespectful

To your memory.

If I knew that this would hurt you,

I would never pursue it again.

But if I have your blessing

I know that your dad and I

Could start something new.

We could be a family,

The way we were meant to be.

 

Copyright©JosieWentzel13July2008