What is it you want?

What is it you want?

 

What is it you truly want?

I give you honesty and you refuse to accept

You think so lowly of me

But I know what you’d like to hear

I know everything that I could say to have me lifted

To the highest storage of your mind

Yet, I refuse to tell you these things

They’re all lies

But you don’t want to hear that, now do you?

Huh, look at this

You’d prefer an illusion and sugar-coated words to reality

Your reality’s never changed, though

You should’ve seen this all coming

Yet you watch me with such fearful eyes

Expecting me to tell you it’s going to be okay

“It’s going to be okay”

Do you feel better now?

Yeah, I didn’t think so

Stop looking at me like that

No tears, Don’t cry

Why must you make everything so difficult?

Nothing can ever be simple, can it?

There’s never been a straight path, in any sense

Yet perhaps the harsh turns have been too much for you

You’ve lost it

You’ve lost all control and now you can’t remember

Well, that’s just great

What do you want me to do about it?

I can’t fix you

Not as if you’d let me try anyway

My views have always been tainted, poison to your mind

Though you learned to accept it

This new reminder seems to hit you a bit too hard

Now what can I do?

The help I can provide is not one you’d like to receive

You can’t expect me to have all the answers

You can’t expect me to stand back and watch you fall

But to catch you is for you to trust me

Why is there no trust?

Why can’t you view me from the eyes you had a few days ago?

Why the sudden change?

I hate change

Can’t everything stay the same?

Oh, now I’m complaining

Did you expect any different?

You don’t know me!

How do you expect me to act?

Like you?

Do you ever know who you are?

Of course, of course

I forgot. You’re always right, aren’t you?

Your word are allow to cut right through me

But a paper cut to you is abuse

This doesn’t make any sense

Wait, let’s start over

Never mind, I’ll lie

I’ll tell you what you want to hear

Let me pretend

I know you’ve always loved games

Come, we can be children again

I’ll with hold the truth from you

And we can run away with this lie

You’d like that, wouldn’t you?

But I’m sorry, wasn’t it you claimed to be a saint?

A saint can’t end up with a devil

Hmm, I guess I deserved that

I’ve only been tell you for years this wouldn’t work

Yet you drew me closer

You got me addicted so I’d let my guard down

Whoops! You accidently stabbed me

I’m dying now

Do you even care?

I guess not

Maybe I deserved that too

I’ve taken so many lies that this is only fair

In that case, can you finish this?

Stop watching me bleed out and just end this

No, never mind, maybe I deserve to suffer too

This is all a joke to you

You’re laughing, aren’t you?

Ha, ha, I’ll admit you had me good

Sucks you can’t remember the times you actually wanted me

This is awesome

No really, I mean it

Who doesn’t want peace?

You’d have to be insane to want to live in chaos

But wasn’t that better?

We used to be the definition of insane

You didn’t mind it so much then

It’s these new pair of eyes

Take them off

I swear I can make everything make sense

Take my hand

Please!

Let’s not leave this way

It’s so unsettling

It’s so nerve wreaking

How do you handle it?

Maybe I’m not as strong as I used to be

I’m falling apart but you seem to be whole again

Have I really been restraining you that much?

Stop it!

At least look at me!

Why am I so evil?

Can you answer me that?

I’m trying, don’t you see?

Please look at me

Can’t we talk?

What is it you truly want?

I give you honesty, yet you still deny me

Reviews

[Annabelle Lee]

I'm sorry, I am just not that into long works and if they can't keep my attention I won't finish reading them. I could hardly make it past the fifth line.... I'm sorry. And my opinion shouldn't stop you from writing... other people might love it!!! Keep writing.

[Hornet]

Awwww. Novec! :(

[Kitt]

Ha ha, I know...