Dear Kristen

A letter for the only person I've ever truly fallen completely in love with.

Dear Kristen,

I hope you remember that I was the one who taught you how it felt to be loved

I hope you also remember that I was the draft of of what not do

Dear Kristen,

She better treat you the way I should have treated you but I hope that even then you will love her less than me

Dear Kristen,

I’m sorry that I stopped you from going to GSA meetings on thursdays

For making you walk around the school so you wouldn’t have to come through the entrance near my locker

For telling my sister who told your brother who told your mom who told me that I needed to stop being a predator

Dear Kristen, 

I love you

Dear Kristen, 

I fight harder than a cancer patient not to kiss you every morning when we say hello

I know it took us months to even be able to hug each other without wanting to jump back into each others arms

But even though he was the other guy I won’t try to make myself the other girl

Dear Kristen,

I was the grenade

Dear Kristen,

I was your first everything 

And you were my everything

And I ruined everything

Dear Kristen,

Do remember when we first met again?

It had been three years since I’d left and it felt good to start over again right where we left off

I was your first all nighter

We would exchange messages by writing notes on your iPod 

And when I told you I was falling for you

You said you didn’t care

Because you were falling too

Dear Kristen,

I’m sorry I didn’t catch you when you reached the bottom

Dear Kristen,

I love you

Dear Kristen,

I suck at commitment

I’m afraid every second that I’m going to f**k up

Temptation only appears when their is something to stray away from

Dear Kristen,

I never moved on

Dear Kristen,

I’m glad you did

Dear Kristen,

I hate that you moved on

Dear Kristen,

I need you more than Hydrogen needs oxygen

Cause without you its just like empty space and heavy air

Dear Kristen, 

I love you

Dear Kristen,

You’re not convincible and I’m not invincible

But our loves not invisible 

Can’t you see that I still care

Dear Kristen,

They may be the fifth or fiftieth time I’ve said it but I love you

Dear Kristen,

I want you back

Dear Kristen,

Don’t come back

Dear Kristen,

Don’t you ever think about coming back

Der Kristen,

I hope you’ll consider coming back

Dear Kristen,

Our love is like CO2

We fit together

We’re everywhere

We’re dangerous

Dear Kristen,

I know I could break your heart into tiny little pieces

And you would pick them up

And put them back in my hands

Reviews

[JC]

beautiful and real and raw.