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maybe my life is just a

pile of weird feelings

like the pit you get in your stomach

and heart

after you say something horrible to a friend

or maybe

like the way your heart sinks

when you find out you failed

at something you worked so hard on

so, so hard

and maybe like

when you see the exhaustion on your loved one’s face

and in the way they do everything

it’s because of you

and you know it

it’s so heavy

like weights on my shoulder

my knees are weak and my stomach is

uneasy and i feel my words

pulling me down

as if the weight around my ankles wasn’t enough

now i have this too

it’s so hard

and so

gross

Author's Note

rant // wasn't a good day today lol