Chapter 6

Everyone just stood there, waiting for me to give approval to leave. "Let's get this over with." I said in a slight sigh, and walked to the door.

"Ride with me for this one" Colton said. I felt a giddy sensation as he asked me this, and it saddened me greatly. I should not feel this way towards anyone else, let alone Colton! Hunter had been so good to me before, and I guessed I was only looking for that feeling again, but Colton had been just as good to me.

I nodded slowly and went to get into his car with him. He looked at me with an odd look on his face. "Is everything okay? You look quite troubled." This struck me with what felt like a strong blow to my heart.

"I just want to get this over with. I need a damn break from it all." I mumbled tiredly.

The funeral was a great deal worse than I had anticipated. I spoke what I felt was needed to say. "Of all the people in my life, Hunter was the most cherished to me. I guess that is why he asked me to leave him. I never would have left his side if I had...If I had..." I trailed off, my eyes watering. My emotions couldn't keep themselves in and I fell apart in front of the small turnout: Delilah, his mother; Michael, his father; Ashley; and finally, Colton. It was odd for them to see anyone like this, let alone me. I had never even shown any other emotion around them but happiness, because they were like my own parents. And Colton was the nearest thing I had to another brother after Daniel. He was there for me, and that made me feel good, but not at this moment. Right now, all I could feel was intense sadness; a deep numbing sadness that only let me feel pain, and all the sadness was for Hunter. I could have saved everything, if  only I had been less broken, as I still so obviously am. But I sadly wasn't. I was wholly destroyed when the words left his mouth; I couldn't deal with it at all, it had wholly tore me in half. After all, we had been inseparable since we were three, and now, I regretted that quality. I had thought that Hunter knew what was best for the both of us, but now, I had to know what was good for me.

Though, all considered, I did not ever believe that I possessed any good qualities in me, Hunter had been the one to find them; but I would do my best. But, I knew that I wasn't alone in this: I had both Ashley, and of course my best friend, Colton. Oddly, a lot of things nowadays contained Colton. But I knew the day was nearly over.