Making good from my pastA Story by KirasoulPlease do not judge me by this story, even though it is true. I have done many wrong things in my twenty-year lifespan up to now, but this is the one that topples them all. But nonetheless, enjoy :)It was the year
that I graduated from elementary school I first met her. Black curls, dark
skin, easy smile……a typical athletic girl. Unlike most Chinese girls who were
shy to their wits to chat with strangers, she greeted me by name the instant we
made eye contact. Just then did I realized that she was the weird girl from the
class next door to my sixth-year homeroom, and she knew me as the American Boy.
A few days later, the two of us met once more in our soon-to-be middle school,
checking out the place, filling through enrollment slips…etc. Little did I know
that she-Michelle-would affect my following two years. We made it to Class one, the elite class of our grade. Pressure stormed down from everywhere, teachers thrust their schedules before we could catch up, parents raised their grade expectations with every passing exam and the competition between students raged on like an eternal war. Our classmates were brilliant, competing for the class crown, and eventually, for the year throne. Under such pressures it was literally impossible to see a path of light through your fears. To survive, Michelle
and I began relying on each other for emotional support. A friendship blossomed
as days passed, reinforced by the fear of losing each other in the fray. Our
bond wasn’t like pleasant friendships that flourished and blossomed through the course of time, but
rather one that enslaved us with fear like chained handcuffs. Without each other's hand to hold on, we would plummet into the bottomless pit and ultimately lose ourselves, an ending that
neither one of us could endure alone. After a month we
met, I told her that I had a girlfriend, so she was somewhere between a “Girlfriend”
and “Best Friend”. Sadly for her, I already had candidates for both positions,
and her face immediately dropped whenever I spoke of them. Now, you must know that I am the type of person
who easily attracts other, but can’t stand staying around the same crowd for
too long. Contrariwise, Michelle is a normal girl that simply could not stand loneness. With completely opposite
personalities, it was easy of us to disband, yet hard to bond together again.
Pride is my power and flaw; she was caught on the dark side when I began to
take her for granted. Like a withering rose, she began to lose her smile. The breaking point was when I finally left our original group and conjured up a new lot. One day, as I was walking in the middle of my newly formed pack down the center of the hallway, someone popped out, “Hey Leon, where’s Michelle?” I shrugged. “Does
it matter?” Little did I
know, she was just tailing the crowd. I didn’t get to
see her face, but I could guess her expression. With that, I lost her trust in
my arrogance and her friendship in my pride. I was an idiot. An atmosphere of
Artic lands then covered our conversations from then on. One day she passed me
a note that simply expressed her disappointment and anger. Hot-headed, I got
rash and started spreading rumors about her through my crowd, using them as
amplifiers to pass on the poisonous words to anyone around us. Within days I
had framed Michelle as the black sheep of the entire class, toppling her status
as I went. Deeper and
deeper she plummeted as I started to conquer the trust of our mutual friends,
tearing apart her last safe haven as I went. She struck the bottom of the pit
as I bested her 36 to 4 when we ran for the position of class leader. A howl of
laughter exploded as she shuffled off stage, followed by jeers of “Who does she
think she is?” With charisma at max, I left her in the dust after passing the
major exam that secured my path to my ideal high school; whereas she flunked
and began preparing for the redo test dated three months later. We went to
different high schools, I went to TYSH and she went to JL. Sometimes I still
ran into her at the train station. In tenth grade I saw her time from time,
sometimes we interacted like complete strangers, and other times she scurried
away from my path. How can I make
good from that part of my past? I have no idea, but from then on, I learned to
cherish my friends instead of treating them as flanks. Friendship isn’t built on
one’s charm; it is the bond between two souls. It was a pity that I could
not see that then, or I would not have lost what was truly important to me. Not
only was Michelle a true friend: she acted as assistant when I had multiple
tasks to accomplish at once like my shadow, she played support when I nearly
lost myself like a lover; and mostly, she was there for me every time I asked
for her (minus the last part) like a sister. Even now, as I rethink my past,
she guides me to this day.
Epilogue: Michelle and I reunited just recently, on
the dawn of 2012/11/2, the day I finished writing the above. This time, she did
not run. S, who knew our story, shot me a demanding
look: Reunion
would only be formed if you can face my past mistakes. So I walked over, pumping myself with
confidence the whole way. © 2016 KirasoulAuthor's Note
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4 Reviews Added on March 21, 2016 Last Updated on March 27, 2016 Tags: Friendship, Betrayal, Slice of Life AuthorKirasoulTaiwan, Taoyuan, Atheism/Pagen (I believe all that exists have life, even seasons and time.), TaiwanAboutHello! My name is Kirasoul, a writer and reviewer of 20 age. My choice of weapon is a LAMI Safari Fountain Pen installed with Brilliant Schwarz Black Ink and loaded with red Casket. I also use a T.. more..Writing
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