coffee cups..

result of a panic attack .

freewrite, what to write. things go on in my head.
love, hate, bloody mary? things still lay in my bed.

coffee cups, sugar cane, distents, pain.
these rambling nothings, these simple words mean nothing to you. 

"will you look at my work?" he said.
strange tings, cold things, warm things, instead apple, cherry, willy wonka,
this thing that thing. more or less.
cuts, bruises, bad and good... time.

Time! not real, made up, control, fake, lies.
you lie, she lies, white lies, black lies?
why lie?

baby bones, big bones, kid bones, teen bones?
little screams, loud screams.

stereotypical? why? fit here, fit there, you dont fit anywhere?!?  why?
you're wrong, its wrong.

god, christ, non-believer, lover, fighter, screamer, hater.

hate her.