Done trying

I'm just getting STARTED!!!!

Done trying

 

Though this comes at a time you’d least expect,
For every time you see me your tears have slept.
And every word you hear makes your face dance with a smile.

Your pearly whites show a light seen from desolate miles.
For every poem that I've written every song I've composed,
Every compliment on beauty like a kiss from the rose.
Every step of every mile every night every day,
Every time I said your name on my knees as I pray.
Years of taking what wasn’t given and giving what's never mine,
Decades of living past my living and escaping past my time.
The me of poetry was such a noble and naive,
So open for an attack no wonder my heart just bleeds
Burning itself away what is left is ash that stays,
I was your phoenix you savior your protector from this grave.
Now all is dead right? I've bleed my last drop,
No more running from who I am it seems these dreams have stopped.
The inner darker child now emerges from me,
A blackout to this world is all he want me to be.
Yes! Lost but this darkness has found in me,
The courage to take my love and escape from me.
I can’t trust myself with you for you can’t trust yourself with me.
Though Id never hurt you, you run as if pain is you with me.
I cant control you and you want me to these words restrict,
Cause a bond that last long isn’t controlled it constricts.
Never letting go of hope of light of loves song,

You never cry when you’re with me knowing it’s where you belong.

So then why do you run and hide, if I never make you cry,
Is it cause if I make you cry you would kiss your life goodbye.
Some think I'm fake when they first meet me cause they truly don't understand,
In a world of mine, love gives you hand knowing your bound to that hand.
No matter what is said no matter who comes with words,
No matter beauty alone resistance is throws hope with curves.
If you know what's in your heart then understand when we first met,
That the truth of the matter is that friendship most romantic.
On the shores and the seas you don't have to be with me to be mine,
Not encouraging adultery just and open heart and mind.
But you still are alone and so what difference does it make,
To run while still thinking about me and the weakness you wont displace.

I'm always dying when replying that I'm only denying,
Truly realities casualties forces me to stop trying.

 

Author's Note

This Poem is about a struggle within, though it dosent seem that way, the history reveals these words to be parting shots each side is taking from one another!