Dream.

selfish eating habits.

skin tight

pale gooseflesh

canvas

stretched upon hundreds of strong sturdy ribs

and backbones

 

waiting to be fed

waiting to feel full and happy

it is a lose-lose situation,, you know..

if you eat you're bound to try to kill your fat 

disgusting

self

if you dont you're bound to do very much the same thing

for very much the same reason

 

and yet you continue to live on water and oyster crackers

       trying to sleep or be outside during dinnertime

"oh i dont want dinner, no thank you! im fine!"--icanliveoffthisamountofbodyfatforYEARS

 

And i am so weak

too weak to be beautiful like those models you see me as

I falter on my own strict plan every few days

   the smell of plump chicken and hearty plates of spaghetti

 

you torture me, you do

        

Author's Note

now dont go calling hotlines and sh*t. im a full 160lbs of girl right now. thats what bothers me.

Reviews

[windmill]

it's okay, you know... to be healthy. it's not all water and oyster crackers (holy god woman... dunno how you do it, anyway. lived off of that for a day in the hospital and i almost punched someone in the face).

it's sad. honest. you're baring a lot... it's tough, i know.

just try to smile.
like this:
:)




whee~
sascha