[un]Able to Think. [un]Able to Want. [un]Able to Breathe.

BiPolar disorder+anger. and family.

?the ever growing grasp of your thoughts
exceeds its boundaries and escapes into my lips
as i speak the words ill soon regret..

;;and harmony will take its place
under the tombstones in the empty graves
because we can never have harmony here
for the chaos might get jealous
and what if harmony fixed the hole in the wall
the names you used to call to get a rise out of me
just to say it all would be saying to little
i could never speak to you the same;;;;or stick up for my broken self
my spines too weak and my voice too meak
you wouldnt hear me and if you did you'd kill
so there i would sit and look to you and silently sob
as the warm tears tried to flush away the hurt
the simple way you say hold my hand because im sorry- -
could not complete what you had dragged out of the closet
i could never understand how you crashed so gracefully
from extreme anger and destruction
to self pity and compassionate hugs    

 

 

      on the day you gave birth to me
did you know you would be the one to kill me too

Author's Note

some parts make no sense. but i love this i really do.
i also post some things on POETRY.com
check it out, this poems on there under "hope", i believe.

Reviews

[Raef C. Boylan]

Interesting use of the semi colons. I'm a bit anal with punctuation, so not sure if I like it, but it's definitely 'different'. You've clearly put some thought and effort into the display of this piece, and it works well to intrigue and also place emphasis on certain parts; reminds me of some album sleeves where random lines of the lyrics are in bold or whatever, and you try to piece all the parts together to see if there's a message, and there most likely isn't. Haha.

This is a very intense narrative, building up to the climax revealing who the addressee is.

Some subtle rhyming throughout which works well [place...graves, sorry...gracefully etc.]

Overall, an intriguing and emotive read.
Great poem. Thanks for posting it.

p.s.
"just to say it all would be saying to little" [too little]

"my spines too weak and my voice too meak" [spine's] [meek]

There are a few words [ill] [im] that technically require apostrophes, but I think you've deliberately missed them out as part of a style - am I right about that? Also, "ill" could be word-play, with a double meaning {I'll and ill]...maybe?